Well up till now

well hmmm, hows life been so far? life after army has been a unique experience i guess. i learnt so much during that time its freaky. i mean not only in the typical sense that all army fellas go through. i learnt what it means to be hurt, in every sense of the word. broken heart broken body, broken trust, broken everything.i really really realised that u really r born alone in this shit ass world. ya parents can care, ya frens may care, but in the end only u know what the hell ure goin through. and thats where the problem lies. i mean, no matter what others do or say, in the end what u feel bout yaself and what u feel inside is really all that matters. and some heal fast, some heal slow. some dun allow themselves to heal at all. theres no such thing as u can nvr heal. thats bull and if someone tells u that, bitch slap them. no matter how long it takes, as long u want to heal, u will heal. and u will grow and be stronger. sounds cheesy, but bloody hell i dun give a rats ass! hahahaha.. started wkin now. and jugglin it with my studies. not easy. but life aint easy. gettin to know more ppl these days. and learnin how some ppl cant let go. i mean if things end they end, y go on and do the whole bitchin. its so like, sad. ure makin urself seem like a lesser person. i feel ya pain gurl :) . and well im pretty messed up bout da goddess. seriously messed. cant wait to meet up soon. miss the craziness and the irritation. and yet somehow it feels nice. now thats scary!