PASSIN CLOUDS

well the goddess is here. i met her on fri night. actually i met her on thurs when we went to see rush hour 3. was so nice to see her. but i felt like i was connin her. i mean i dunno y. we spent the night at ecp on fri. had the tent and all. she was at dans bday bbq and she met me all smashed. haiyooo. and morn the rain made sure that i ended up goin to wk late. i waited for a cab, for 1 1/2 hrs. yes i didnt type wrongly. my boss wasnt wkin and hot ass said shed cover. but son of a bitch smeely boy smsed him and told. cuz hee was late and he wanted to cover his ass. damn the week is just fucked. i really couldnt take it when he played me out. and last night i messed up closin. and once again smelly boy was bein such a bastard. i mean i wasnt born to do all this. i tell u one day im just gonna sock him.

and keepin up wif a fucked week, the ex called. and we talked. and we talk for a bit. i mean i dunno whats goin on wif me right now. i really adore the goddess. but i realised that right now i am so messed that i dun care bout love dun feel love is real at all. its like im happy bein the way i am right now. its like ive been so empty inside for so long that ive gotten used to it and now feelin things actually feels weird and wrong. and the goddess is gonna fuck me up cuz i cant tell things like this to her. but she doesnt understand that i bloody hell dun tell anyone what i feel. cuz i myself dunno and im scared to bloody know. i wish i could uproot and start somewhere else. and now the goddess says shes stayin. i need the space the apart. she said, well like how u were a passin cloud for me last yr, ill be your passin cloud this yr. and i felt so horrible i couldnt say anythin.

i feel so angry wif wk, wif cock suckin cunt of a whore smelly boy, wif how im treatin goddess, the ex, everythin. but i got no choice but to buck up and strive on. cuz in the end i owe it ot myself to make things wk out. so i guess ill just have to focus on what i need to do for myslef for now. till im swept off my feet. whenever, if ever, that happens.


p.s. niggersam is really gettin on my nerves. fuckerrman. homie bastard. somethins up i can feel it. god damn spidey sense tinglin